So, the last I wrote about me, I was studying my behind off to try to get up to speed on all the new things that have come out in the development world in the last 6 years, since I've been home with the kids. I worked every night, every nap time and twice a week while both kids were in school. I studied my behind off (really, I have no butt now). And, last week, I re-interviewed. I think I did pretty well. There was only one question that I answered incorrectly (and it was just there to trick me [or teach me] anyways) and a couple that I fumbled a little bit with, but got it in the end. My mock teaching, I think I did pretty well. I did a lesson on the CSS box model and a lesson on SSL (that I wrote myself). I didn't get flustered when I was asked questions and I think I handled myself very well.
But, after all that hard work, taking time away from my children so that I could nail this re-interview. They decided that they wouldn't be making me an offer. They said I'm just not a good fit for their company.
I'm sitting here devastated. I went down there and interacted with the staff. I thought we all got along well. I thought I was a great fit for their company. I want to teach, and they need instructors. They need a woman instructor, and I'm a woman. I just don't get it. I don't know what I could have done different to change the outcome. They didn't say I wasn't strong enough technically, or that I wasn't good as an instructor. They said it was about ME as a person. So, all that hard work, and they just didn't like ME. I'm hurt. What is it that they didn't like about me? How can I fix what I don't know is wrong?
So, my readers ... tell me. What about my personality makes you not want to hire me? Really? I'm trying to make myself a better person, but I can't fix what I don't know is wrong. Please help me.
