Rough couple of weeks

I love my life! I have everything I could ever need or want.  I get to wake up every morning to the sounds of my daughter singing.  I get to stay at home all day and play with her.  I get to help raise money for some wonderful charities. I get to hang out with some wonderful ladies. I have a wonderful husband who makes it all possible, and provides me with the support I need.  But, sometimes, none of that matters and I just need to cry.

Jade walking Noise

Noise, our wonderful dog, was put down last week.  She gave my husband 17 long and wonderful years, and blessed me with her love for the past 5 years. She was my first pet, and I had never known that kind of love.  When I was working, at the end of the day, she would help me relax by sitting in my lap and letting me pet her.  When I was on bed-rest, she sat with me and kept me company.  After Jade was born, she shared her spot on my lap with Jade, making her feel welcome. She taught Jade so much. She taught her how to be gentle with others.  Now, because of Noise, Jade is the most gentle 2-year-old I know.  She willingly shares with others. She is a wonderful little girl because of the influence of our sweet Noise.

Then, last week, my period was 4 days late. But, we had negative pregnancy test after negative pregnancy test.  I was an emotional wreck. I desperately wanted to be pregnant.  But, finally, I got my period.  And, I didn’t have Noise to cuddle with to make me feel better.

And, after over a week with no accidents in potty training, Jade messed herself 4 times in one morning, while we were out and about. One time, she was with Jeremy, playing, and I was out saying hello to my friends.  He hands her to me and says “Fix your daughter.”  Not realizing she was wet, I grabbed her, and got urine all over myself.  So, I went and cleaned her up and got her clothes changed, but for the rest of the party,  I had to sit in a wet shirt for the rest of the morning.

As you can see, none of these things are big deals. There are so many people out there that are not happy and that have a lot of terrible things going on. I am not one of those people. I am happy.  I have everything.  But, I had a rough week.  Luckily, knowing that I have a wonderful daughter, a super husband, and great friends, I can get through this rough week and come out on the other side an even better and happier person.

Noise, we miss you and will always love you.