School starts this week

Jade has been asking for 2 months now when she could go back to school.  This is so happy to hear but also a little sad.  I love that she likes school and learning.  I wish she were my little baby for a little longer.

This week we had a meet the teacher meeting and I was very thrilled. Her teachers this year seem very nice and very good.  She's also very excited that her friend Johnny is in her class.  She is devastated that her best friend is not in her class.

So, school starts on Tuesday.  She will be going to school 5 days a week this year.  I know this is what is best to prepare her for kindergarten, but I will miss my little girl.

I can't believe she's growing up so fast.  She's started reading.  She's adding.  She's growing up faster than I am prepared for.

I miss my babies.  But I love watching them learn new things.  I love seeing the excitement in their eyes when they do something new.  There is nothing better than being a mom.

So, two days until the start of pre-k. I'm almost ready!

Down in the dumps

So, as You've read, Texas has not been very good to me.  I moved here in November.  I got appendicitis in February.  I got mono in April.  I got bronchitis in July.  I feel like I'm always sick and it is so hard to keep up with a 1 and a 4 year olds when you are always sick.

Well, I've been better for about a week now and I've just been down in the dumps.  I feel like I am the most inadequate mom on the planet.  I cook 6 days a week.  I do laundry 6 days a week.  I clean when I can, but I feel like it is never enough.  No one in my family seems happy with me right now.

Problem is: it's all in my head.  Maxwell is as happy as can be and he is thriving.  Jade is happier than she's been in a while, and although she acts up a bit, she is learning so much and doing so well. Bailey loves everything and is doing well.  Jeremy is having struggling with finding the perfect job for him and he's trYing to quit the nicotine lozenges, so he's a bit cranky at times. But I know that he's happy and doing well.  

Why do I feel like I'm not doing enough?  Why do I feel like I'm not good enough?

I'm under appreciated.  has anyone Told me my cooking is good?  Has anyone thanked me for their clean clothes or for running all over town for camps and play dates?  Did jade thank me for taking her to the frozen party?  You guessed it.  No!

So, I'm feeling like I'm a horrible mom,  But in actuality, they're a horrible boss.  When I was in the corporate world and I did a good job, I was told so.  But, not here.  These bosses just expect me to keep going and not get any thanks.  I just need to adjust to my job.  I need to stop being so selfish and maybe my example will rub off on them.  I need to be even more grateful than I already am.