Down in the dumps

So, as You've read, Texas has not been very good to me.  I moved here in November.  I got appendicitis in February.  I got mono in April.  I got bronchitis in July.  I feel like I'm always sick and it is so hard to keep up with a 1 and a 4 year olds when you are always sick.

Well, I've been better for about a week now and I've just been down in the dumps.  I feel like I am the most inadequate mom on the planet.  I cook 6 days a week.  I do laundry 6 days a week.  I clean when I can, but I feel like it is never enough.  No one in my family seems happy with me right now.

Problem is: it's all in my head.  Maxwell is as happy as can be and he is thriving.  Jade is happier than she's been in a while, and although she acts up a bit, she is learning so much and doing so well. Bailey loves everything and is doing well.  Jeremy is having struggling with finding the perfect job for him and he's trYing to quit the nicotine lozenges, so he's a bit cranky at times. But I know that he's happy and doing well.  

Why do I feel like I'm not doing enough?  Why do I feel like I'm not good enough?

I'm under appreciated.  has anyone Told me my cooking is good?  Has anyone thanked me for their clean clothes or for running all over town for camps and play dates?  Did jade thank me for taking her to the frozen party?  You guessed it.  No!

So, I'm feeling like I'm a horrible mom,  But in actuality, they're a horrible boss.  When I was in the corporate world and I did a good job, I was told so.  But, not here.  These bosses just expect me to keep going and not get any thanks.  I just need to adjust to my job.  I need to stop being so selfish and maybe my example will rub off on them.  I need to be even more grateful than I already am.