I have the most amazing husband in the world, and the cutest and sweetest daughter ever. I had expected to spend the entire weekend crying, and yet I had a very good weekend.
Last September we had a miscarriage. If we hadn’t have lost him, little Dewey would have been born this past weekend. Today, I would be holding my little baby. I would be struggling with breastfeeding. I would be dealing with Jade’s jealousy of the new baby. I would be in severe pain, recovering from the c-section. But, I would have my little baby … the sweet addition that the Breiding family needs.
My husband came home on Friday with a big bouquet of flowers. He took Jade and I to the beach on Saturday, then out for frozen yogurt. Then, I got to have a wonderful afternoon at a tea party with friends on Sunday. To finish the weekend, we went to the Food Truck Bazaar at Avalon Park and enjoyed a nice dinner as a family.
I love my family! Jeremy and Jade are perfect. I couldn’t imagine life without them. They are everything to me. But, that doesn’t change the fact that I think our life would be that much better with one more. Is that selfish of me? I feel bad feeling bad.
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